Tracing the footsteps

Its the last day for 2009~Wow...and all of us grew older now. Everyone is thinking about their life back throughout the year and so do i. To my surprised, i've grew alot this year! Wow~~hahah...i've never expected so much. Really thank God for abundant blessingssss this year. So yea, am gona do my flash back for 2009.

College
What more about college life when every student is bound with assignments and dead lines~Yup, college life was not a mild one with classes, books, harvard referencing, journalism, lecturers...Typical college life. Yet, there are some interesting agendas~Hahah...since the opening of MyCafe opposite Kurnia building, it has become one of our hot spot to either chill out, discuss assig or skip classes~Ahaha...and we always wanted the top part of the cafe cause we'll have more private space to make noises and the air-conditioner is cooler up there. ^^

Oooh...who will ever forget the photo session for Taylor's~Wohooo...thanks to our dear Jason Chong who recommended this good and fun job for me. Yea...its my first time posing in front of so many students like no body business and taken by a professional photographer. But but...too bad those photos were not published and i guess they will continue be a part of the past tenses...aihz~We were so hyper when we were called to take those photos, but now...it ended up, kosong.

Heartnest
Wow...where should i begin~It was really not easay for the 6 of us, Xiao Hui, Fe Fe, Kent, Ah Yang, Lil Zhen and myself to come together, search for one suitable unit and stay under one roof. From 6 people night chatting session for almost 2 weeks to heart to heart talk for the 3 gals till super late midnight to lots and lots of outings and celebrationssss, that was and will be my most exciting out-from-home stay.

Every night, lilttle zhen, xiao hui and me will talk and talk and talk untill 3-4am. When its time for class, those around us will know that 3 of us are roomates cause we shared the same panda eyes! FeFe is the sand king+starbuck kaki at home, i tell you...who on earth will bring and leave behind so much sand wherever he goes, work and rush for mountains of assigs? None other than Felix Chung!! Kent ah...the muscle chef+Dota kaki. Don't you ever let his muscular out look deceive you, he's actually a big baby at times~Lols...Ah Yang, the architecture+emo+chou hua ren. He's also the guardian for A-13-07 as he is the one at home all the time rushing for assigs and models~

Hmm...miss miss miss those moments with the heartnest-erssss~

Church
From the creation of the name "Church Women", indeed...i am one who enjoys serving God and having lots of fun at the same time. Seriously, i've grown alot serving Him throughout the year. From ordinary member to working member, from no team to multimedia team and from passenger to driver. People come and go, lots of things have changed since i started to commit in church on March. Wow...i've seen people changed and i've grown more mature spiritually and mentally. Thank God i found my kaki here where i have no worries bout what to eat and where to go when am alone. :) Yea...it feels horrible when you are all alone and wanting for company.

Well, church life is like a rollercoaster for me. I've cried alot this year...for souls, for the country's revival and for broken relationships. And yup...i've cried alot too when am lost in no where all alone, wandering who to call for help. Hahaha...guess i'm still that little girl at times~But seriously, getting lost is NOT a joke! Sri Petaling, i BAN this place!!! Cause i lost twice in the same area...swt. And recently, got lost again in KL and that was seriously scary. But luckily, i was not alone but with Iain who doesn't know anywhere in KL. >_<

Family

Hmm...am still the little princess who reports everything to the king and queen back in royal town. Well, now i've been promoted to be the listener to both the king and queen as well as my beloved brother.Gosh...i know every thing, i know what is going through their mind, i know their secrets, i know their sorrows, i know their joy and i know their needs.

Gosh....7 more hours to a brand new year!!! What is my hope and wish? Hmm...seriously i have lots and lots of wishes and hopessss~But anyway, am sure it will be another year of excitement and fun where i will be saying "I've grown alot" at the end of 2010!! Hahahah~ God Bless everyone and Happy New Year~!!! ^^ Mwahhhhhh

VENT

Great...now my lappie kena virus again and need to format it. Gosh...really super hate it when things are not going well, especially during holidays. What is next now? This was suppose to be in

Chinese, but lucky me, the language bar dissapear JUST LIKE THAT!!! Okay fine....i do admit that am not computer literate, but come one....where is the stupid language bar??!!!!

So now, dad is angry. Great....

Where is the ears i need, the hug i yearn for and the comfort words i wish now? And the conclusion is...no where. Little Zhen, stop working...i need to have lots of midnight talks with you to soothe myself. KMS, stop busy with your stuff...i wana Miiii you till the end of 2009. Aihz.....

Yes, i know am acting like a 3 year-old. Yes, i'm PMS-ing. Yes, i do get angry easily too!

I angry when you IGNORE me everytime

I angry when your volume is louder than mine

I angry when i am soft hearted

I angry when i know you were lying but still forgive you each and everytime you did it

I angry when you think its funny when its NOT

I angry when everything seems to go well and you turn away just like that

I angry when there's no food and ice-cream

I angry when the weather is too hot

I angry when i had to act like nothing when i was not happy

I angry when you were the reasonss for me being so angry

To someone-please dont continue treating me so good, you know i cant repay you with anything. The better you treat me, the guiltier i will be. Tried to hint ya and i really hope you understands it. Working under one roof for the same boss, it'll be so weird if something fishy going between us right?

Its not easy to carry the Cross, but God i am willing. I do believe that You will take good care of everything when we were You whole heartedly. My wish for 2009-CYC54 gona spilt to 3 CGss! Amen!

Lord, i need Your strength to go through everything. Help me to put aside anything that is pulling me backward. Make me to be a stronger army!!!

*okay...i've finished all my venting now.

The Season of Colours

Was browsing through pictures of babies and i found this cute little santa baby

Hmm...this is my wish for this year's Christmas....Innocent and Happy~Would you kind enough to help me with it?

Oooowh Tooo

Oxygen is everywhere surrounding us

Giving life and breath to every living thing on earth

Its the source of life, energy and happiness

You can stop breathing

You can hide from it

You can even control how much you need it

But you can never say NO to Oxygen
Its either you live with it

Or you die without it

Guess people dont have a choice here, aren't they?

The more you resist, the more you hunger for it

The more confidence you have, the weaker you will be

You can control your physical movement
Yet you can never control your brain

Give me back my innocent life

The Ever 2 years old Phang Lih Yeh

We started on a casual conversation, and it ends up sampat-ly...this is the ever 2 years old Phang Lih Yeh!!!

!Lih Yeh[loves GOD] serve God with HUMBLE heart 2009.. says: see u whether care of ur cg members or not la??

Joanne says: waliao i memang care de leh come on i care for everyone hahahah but not u la

!Lih Yeh[loves GOD] serve God with HUMBLE heart 2009.. says: ya la ya la

Joanne says: too bad bluek

!Lih Yeh[loves GOD] serve God with HUMBLE heart 2009.. says: i know cuz i care u more than u care me u r panda everyone in this world also protecting panda WWF

Joanne says: HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA sei yeh!!!! now no more panda edy hor i sleep early at home de leh

!Lih Yeh[loves GOD] serve God with HUMBLE heart 2009.. says: ya mer no worries la ur eyes still charming i love panda cuz of the eyes

Joanne says: hahahahahha diam la u sei ye u tot so easy got panda eyes meh

!Lih Yeh[loves GOD] serve God with HUMBLE heart 2009.. says: hhahaha now i so easily got panda eyes since know u

Joanne says: hahahha WEI dun put the blame on me ar you sendiri got the panda gene oni

!Lih Yeh[loves GOD] serve God with HUMBLE heart 2009.. says: hahaha... dont wanna talk to u ady panda gonna study today

Joanne says: you 2 years old la...sendiri OI me

!Lih Yeh[loves GOD] serve God with HUMBLE heart 2009.. says: ok lo, i'm monkey hahha gtg now ciao buai buai

5岁的我

如果同时有两个哥哥给我糖糖，

叫我跟他走，我会选择谁？

五岁时的我，在遇到这种情况之下其实是做了怎样的选择呢？一直说“等我长大些再做选择”，可是有些事情就是那么令人讨厌，咄咄逼人。

当你想吃糖果时，哥哥就拿到你面前来。当你说哥哥不再给你糖果时，糖果就在你面前。

没得选很烦，有得选更烦。五岁的我是如何做选择的？

Train of Thoughts

Yeehar~~Am finaly back to Royal Town after leaving this comfy place for 2 months. Frankly speaking, i had some difficulties coping with the slow and peaceful life here. Lol..sounds stupid right? This is where i grew up and yet i have problems coping with the life here after leaving this place for 2 months....i wonder how would it be if i left this place for a year~

Well, its just my 2nd day at home and i had had lots of thoughts~Arhhh...come on, young people!

Was reaching Cosway around 7pm on Thursday and mum was waiting for me downstair already. Looking at her, my first thought was "I am so gona hug and kiss her!" :) Well, this time i managed to do so~Yea...after failing for like...duno how many times throughout the year! Apparently, mum was surprised~!!! Haha~Oh...i really miss that moment when i hug her~She's always the greates mum in the universe! ^^

Then, was on the way to Taiping church for a Revival Meeting on that night. Dad was fetching another church member, which is an uncle of 62. Gosh....then only i realised that huge differences between dad and uncle Frankie. Dad is only 4 years younger than him but...but but dad looks super young man!!! Gosh....and i really thanked God that He has been taking care of my family and everyone's health when i realised uncle Frankie suffered from stroke. Only 4 years of age difference and dad looks like a son to uncle Frankie with no major health problem and still keeping the "young people stamina"~

And this morning, went to Taiping again to send grandparents and aunty to KL. So funny right...i came back for them, but they'r going there for fun!!! >_< Grandpa and grandma was so shocked and happy when they saw me farewell-ing them at the station! Hahahha....have i told ya that i have cute grandparents? Am just so happy to see their cute face again la seriously~I miss their cold jokes, especially grandma. She just likes to find ways to tease and tease me, from her cooking to dressing....you name it, she got it!

Was watching mum doing her marketing today and that SCARED me!!! Gosh....how on earth can mothers be so super geng?!!! I mean...knowing what to buy for every family members, what sos and ingredient.....who, what, where, when and how! OMG...i seriously fail this man! Then i told dad "how am i going to get marry in the future? I dont know how to cook eh~" And it ended up dad forcing me to learn cooking.....T_T But then as mass commers (trained to think, turn and talk fast), i said "No dad, i will marry a chef or a cook! Dont worry, i wont starve your grandchild~And if he doesnt know how to cook, i will not consider him" Hahaha...and dad just looked and me and smile! Guess in his heart, he said "I manja-ed her alot and this is what happen now....sigh"

Oh boy....am starting to act like an old lady back in hometown here!!! Keep thinking and thinking~!!!!

Complicated

Wilson：“谁不想拍拖啊？”
我：“我咯”

其实，人的生活真的真的很累。。。每天每天为了不知什么的在奔波，到最后剩给自己的时间就只有那仅仅的一两个小时。谁还有时间去交什么男朋友，谁还有时间去做些不属于自己的事情啊！功课都忙到透不过气来，还要安排时间让自己休息，还要找时间给自己娱乐一下。。。说真的，还蛮佩服那些couple.

今天的我很不开心。很多很多事情要做，很多很多责任要扛，很多很多任务要完成！我肩膀扛不起这一座大山。每一次心情超不好时，我会想不到要向水哭诉。因为不想自己低落的心情，影响到其他的人。而且.....是比较不想在别人面前哭啦！

本来我以为，跟天父哭诉了一切一切。。。可以讲的，不可以讲的，都告诉了后心情会好很多。可是，我是人不是神。At the end of the day, 我还是需要一个人在我身边安慰我，哄我，逗我笑~很讽刺对不对！就像一个胖小孩dying to eat sweets, 可是却因为害怕得糖尿病而被逼放弃。
其实每一次伤心时都会有冲动要向很多很多人哭诉 （kms, little zhen, mic...)，到最后当然是没有啦！因为我知道每个人都有自己的烦恼，他们烦自己的事情就已经够了。

If i have the opportunity to choose, i will tell you that i want to get married and be a wife that sits at home only.

“历史”

我只是要一家人

坐下来

开开心心的

吃一顿饭

有那么难吗

或许一切就只能像这张照片那样，回味而已。

"Rainbow"

Am just a simple girl that will be happy if there is food for me!!! If you guys happend to read the previous post, yes...am kinda emo while writing it, but not now yea! Thankz to my dear roomy Chin Hoi that ajak me for Nando's delivery! She's just so sweet, always there cheering me up! ^^ And Little Zhen, if you were here....i bet the house will be more lively!!

When carnivores group together, this is what they order for meal. :)

Oh boy~~Am truely happy now! See...when you are so dead bored at home doing nothing while others are having fun out there, dont be discourage!! Just go ahead and do something you like and you will smile once more! ^^

A meal will always brighthen me up!! Hahahahha

Resting Day

Selamat Hari Raya everyone~!!!!!

Nazihah is having her pot of rendang on her left, ayam masak merah on her right and ketupat in the middle. Hahahah....i want rendang la this year, too long never had a real celebration for Raya already. Hmm....i guess my next bday wish will be "Having a truely Raya celebration with lots of rendang and ketupat."

Almost everyone is OUT to the mall or with friends to have some fun eh! I actually had one too...Melacca. But too bad called off already. And then i thought of going to PD, but too bad this idea came too late.

The weather today is so so nice man i tell you, it will be great to go for some outdoor activity! Can i can i? But its just too late to plan anything la now~So i guess, it will be a full resting day for me! After all the late night sleep, chivas and all....

简单

很喜欢这首歌，王力宏-星期六的深夜。

告诉你，如果我未来老公这样想我求婚，我一定马上嫁给他！

我懂我懂，我很容易受感动。简单不好吗难道？就这样嫁给一个爱我的人，就这样嫁给一个愿意为我花心思的人，就这样嫁给一个只要看我笑的人，就这样嫁给一个可以满足我喜怒哀乐的人。

本来王力宏是弹着简单的音符伴奏这首歌的，当然已经够lum了。可是当我找到这版本时，觉得还蛮特别的。因为用吉他弹奏出来，有着一种不一样的感觉。琴声往往给我那种高贵，浪漫的feel~而吉他就有那种亲切感，邻家小孩的感觉。。。很亲近。

注意下这首歌的歌词，很感动的~Hmmm...lum si 我了！！

Awwhhhh

I am super de HUNGRY now!!!!! Hmmm...yes i know, i had a bowl of Chilli Pan Mee and Tau Foo Fa with Soya. But but...that was 7pm and now is 1.20am. Mummy....i want food, homecook food!!

Well, that's not my point for writing this post. Lol~Okay, back to serious business.

How can i NOT mention the goodness of God in my life~and how can i NOT be touched by what my dear leaders and CG member did to me just now!

After our CG meeting, i was craving so hard for chee cheong fun since duno how many ages ago. And since after our meeting kms and jing gor gor have the mood to go for it, so we decided to go for CCF. But then...who knows the CCF aunty didn't open her stall today!!!!! Arhhhhhhh.....kek sei me la~!!! Why la always like that? Then i thought its time to go back to the same old nest of mine, eating the same old food which i do not know which to choose everytime i look at the menu. But then....there is always a rainbow behind the clouds yea!!!

Jing said that i will be so kelian to eat outside food alone while the three of them (kms, jing and pei xian) will be having homecook food!!! So sad eh...then Jing suggest that they can actually teman me for dinner but also outdie food. Hahahha...OMG, i was so happy already eh!!! At least no need to eat the food in my place there for one day. Then i was given the opportunity to choose what i want to eat and there we go~~~WOhoooo....Chilli Pan Mee!!!

A huge thankyou for Jing, Suet and Xian for temaning me eating outside food ya! I know they were rushing back home after waiting for me to makan as their family members are waiting for them and some is rushing for assig. Really love you guys from the bottom of my heart la! Amen!!

Relationship

I realised that Relationship, regardless of friends, family, love and even with our dear God is so amazing! It is a connection of us with someone else that is un-explainable and we as human beings somehow just cling on and depend on relationshipsss to live. I don't see this as a bad thing as no one can live alone on this planet and even the simplest or smallest or loneliness-est creature on earth will have a tiny little relationship with one of those mentioned above.

Well, back to the topic...i was kinda touched just now in the Tertiary Party at church. It was a hard day for me before the party as i was rushing here and there, getting lost and scolding people so badly in my heart. So yea...am bringing my bad clouds to th party, so unethical right. But then somehing brighten me up at the middle of the party.

Nicole: Hello, what is your name?

Me: I know you are Nicole, i am Joane.

Nic: Ooooowhhhhh~!!!! So YOU are Joanne. (eyes open super de wide) So how is your sickness?Feeling better now?

OMG...!!! She remembered a girl name Joanne, was sick for one week!!! And this was our first official self introduction plus orientation okay~Can you imagine how TOUCHED i was?!!! I mean...someone who don't know you remembered that you were sick!!! Where can you find this kind of relationship outside this cold world? I mean...the world is like "Who cares about you when i don't know who you are? You sick, your problem la!" And the most touching part was...i myself already don't remember i was sick last last week!!!

Awwhhh....She is such a nice girl isn't she? I can sense God's love from her that moment. Its just so warm~~~

And after the party, i was talking to my high school mate. Well for some of you who knows this pass story, i had a huge fight with this friend of mine. And urm....after we met during A4J in CYC, our conversation was like abit too fake for two friends that had huge fight during high school and never ever talked to each other again. Or maybe am being too sensitive about this, or maybe he has put aside all our dendam and stuff in high school. I never know i had a tiny little place in his heart all this while eh~

Thomas: When i first came to CYC, it was so different and happening here. I like this place and i always got the answer and solution whenever i faced any problem.

Me: Ooowh...really? Good la then.

Thomas: After attending CYC few times, i wanted to INVITE you to this special place. Cause i know you are a Christian and this is really a good place for you. But who knows....you were here earlier than me. Hahahaha...

OMG again...!!!! Do you get the point there? Thomas thought of me when he feels comfortable and happy in CYC!! OMG~~~!!!! What can i say man? I was super touched to the max when he told me that and i repeatedly confirmed with him the fact that, he thought of me!!!! I feel so bad lo....was having the wrong perception on him all these years.

Okay...maybe i over reacted or my examples are kinda weak in expressing how touched can someone be to be remembered in someone's heart, but seriously you should try it out someday.

Lots to say in too little time

Going to the clinic in half and hour more and i am so darn nervous. For the very first time, i don't feel like dying. Yes i know, i shouldn't scare...but i just cant control myself.

Yea...pray for me if you see this post of mine. Hope that i'll recover soon and get my ass back to life as soon as possible and....i just don't wana die so fast.

In a sudden, i feel like having lots of heart to heart talk to lots of people. But i know i don't have the time and money to do so. Erm....don't worry okay, you guys will always be in my heart, especially my dear Heartnest gang!

Gota go now, chiao~

Smile :)

A smile represents everything and anything. It is often a symbol representing happiness to those who received it. "Smile and you will feel happy"

But today...i realized that a smile can actually represents something opposite. Give an example...when you did something wrong or a mistake, people will give you a friendly smile. Get me?

This is David's smile. It's so friendly yea..? And yes, this smile is really a friendly one. And....its my fault for taking it as a negative one and i just don't know why. Am glad that i asked David personally after that and i found out that, yea...its a welcome smile from him.

A smile can represent many symbols to me. Like a coin that has its both side, just depending which side you want to see it.

The Father's Love

John 3:16 (King James Version)
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

This famous bible verse is well-known to every Christian around the world. In this verse, it shows the endless love of God, our heavenly Father to us. He never forget about us and will always listen to each and every prayer of our's.

Well, i know this since young as i grew up in a Christian family but it was just purely a bible verse that i remembered deep down in my heart. Whenever there is any difficulties in life, we human tends to grumble alot and doubt that "why God is not there to help us?" But through this one month holiday of mine, i can sense the presence of God so strongly that i began to look back and laugh at my own foolishness those days.

God has been very very good to my family and i all these years. When i look back, i feel happy for my past although we had to struggle with financial problems at times. But hey, like the Funeral TVC by Yasmin Ahmad said "a little imperfection that make one perfect". Every coin has its both side and we should never look at one side of our life only right?

Since i started going to church every Friday, Saturday and Sunday, trasnportation has became an issue for me. If some of you might know me, am kinda degil at times and that makes me sort of hard at heart. Imagine have to ask/call/beg someone to send you to church and back home everyweek for three days, and i will have to repeat this action 6 times. Aihz....so mafan right and i am like so beh paiseh, asyik ask ppl to fetch me. So i pray that i will have my own car just to send me to church and also to help out in fetching those who have transport problems.

And last Friday, my aunt sold her car to dad with a really low price because she knows that i am using it in the kingdom of God. Amen yea~!!! Its a white wira and i named it Wira Lui. ^^ Well, so am now officailly have a car (but not under my name) just to get me to church! But Wira Lui is not driving me back this week as my dad put her into the workshop to make sure everything is fine, to change the old and don't know what that will cause any danger to me.

Its a Wira and some of you out there will look down on it cause its not any high class car. But its already very good okay, at least i don't have to walk/crawl to anywhere i wana go anymore. And oooh...don't forget that its a blessing from both my heavenly Father and earthly father okay. My dad could just ignore me and buy a brand new car for himself to speed and show off here in hometown okay~But he didn't, he use up some of his money to buy this wira lui for me to drive to church. If not for God's love that touch my dad's heart, i will never have this car.

I've grown up

Things have changed dramatically as time passed by so fast. When i'm taking a little rest, time doesn't just stop and rest with me. Instead, it keep on moving, ticking every second and minute quietly.

I used to dream and demand to be a grown up girl, going college and hanging around in the city with friends, doing what a grown up girl should do. Ever since i stepped into college life, i didn't remember or pay any attention about this dream that i used to have. Yea...what i did each day since the first day in college has already fulfilled my demand in the past. I've grown up without me myself noticing! Oh boy....its July now and i will be celebrating my 21st birthday in the coming 6 months. Wow....am not that little girl anymore~What a joke it is to always think that i am stil that young girl that carries my pillow and sleep on the counter in my mum's shop.

Have just attended two weddings recently where one was my cousin's and the other is CK, a church member. Can't believe i was wearing dress~~Lol...yeah...dress to the wedding. Hahahha!!! And for CK's wedding, am one of the flower girls! Wow....now am still qualify to be the flower girl....Well, it was a lifetime experience to dress up and be girly where i normally won't include this thing in my daily routine.

And yeah...now am so obsess with taking pictures with others~Hahahha...untill i realised i don't have a solo picture!! So sad....The whole world have their own solo pic to post as their profil picture but i don't have one!!!! So charm leh...cause you know why, my camera is always with some other people which is more obsess in taking ownself picture than me! Ahha...you know who am i referring to. But nevermind, since technology is so canggih kan...i can always create my own solo picture! Hehehe....so this is my creative piece of art.

Yea...i know the colour and size thing not balance and it looks..kinda weird. But hey, you guys know my limitations in creativity right~Hahahha...the very first comment i got from this photo was "i WANT a copy of your cutie pic" and that was the only positive comment. Lol~~Some said am dead, some said its too fake, some said..."Wow...why so many devils". Hahahha...Yes, inilah sel-sel creativity saya!

After finishing this photo, i noticed that i've grown up alot physically and mentally. Wow....i looked nice eh~Lol...seriously, make up do makes a person looks different.

July Love Air~

July, 2009 is a month of Love for me. Hehe...My cousin brother got married last two weeks and held his wedding dinner and lunch both in Bangsar and Taiping. Ahhh....love is in the air man. I was really happy to see my cousin and his wife being able to be together officially at last. They had lots of blessings from both the family members and church members. All the best for their love life.

I was celup in the love atmostphere super gao gao untill i started to wonder...where is my love? Hahahah....well, life partner is not easy to find. Like what Wei Yi Jie mentioned, God puts the right partner in our lifes, it is ourself who go and see which one is him or her. Well, am always not in a hurry for a partner~But gosh....when you'r celup in the love atmosphere and you'r all alone there, you'll notice that you'r missing something. You know what i mean right?

Well, here is some photos of the day.

The Mah-hhh's Cousins



I was the emcee~Lol

Yum~~Shing~~~!!!!

希。望

我的肩膀也会有酸痛的一天啊。。。。放过我吧~

我理解你的心情，但我并不要求你明白我的心思。

我要的。。。只是重新闻到彩虹那清新的味道。

Smell of the Rainbow

Who can ever imagine...the hot sun with super bright sunlight will end up with heavy downpour+super strong wind. It was like a never ending war last night....a war that will only ends when one side is being certified DEAD.

But hey....everything turned out well this morning~!!! Although i can't see any rainbow after the rain, but i can smell it. Everything was so fresh....the grass are greener, trees are stronger, flowers become more beautiful and the air smells good.

Yea...of cause there are stones and dead leaves all over the place. But hey, this is a normal sight after a war right? The freshness of the rainbow after the rain....hmm..i just like it. :)

O.M.G

As some of you know, my dear cousin brother is getting married on this Saturday at Bangsar.
So...as a not fashionable gal, i've get help from Yi Ping (the fashion one) in helping me to sew 2 dresses for both the wedding dinner in Bangsar and Taiping, next week.

*Ta Da-aa-aaa-aaaa* Yi Ping had finished the dress and i've tried it. My fist reaction when i looked into the mirror was.... O.M.G~~~!!!!! I was speecless...@_@

It was kinda weird looking at myself wearing dress....O.M.G~~Can you imagine that?!!! The dress was so beautiful...and it was on my body!!!! Arhhhhhhh~~~~!!!!! I've not been wearing dress for almost 10 years..yeah, 10 long years,...and now I AM WEARING ONE!!!

Seriously, i don't recognise that girl in the mirror...Where is the Joanne Mah Chia Ying that i was/am living with? Where is that jeans/shorts/pants girl went to?? OMGoodnesss....can't believe that i am wearing a dress to a wedding dinner and that is how i'm going to look like.

The color for the dress is white with purple ribbon and another one is golden brown with belt. Both of them look so feminine.....O.M.G~~i can't construct a sentence now.

Let me go and find myself back first, shall we?

Bored

I can sense the boredness inside me again now....OMG, it is so darn bored in Ridzuan here. Okay, maybe some of you will say "Come on~Just go to the pyramid" Yeah well...no one will feel entertain when you are walking alone at the shopping mall, spending money like no one's else business and at the day....gal, you'r still alone.

What a good start for my holidays....>_< No one is at home!!! OMG....i really cant believe that i will be dumb for two days!!! Gosh...its super torturing for not talking to anyone from 4pm to 1am!! Can you imagine that? Joanne Mah Chia Ying are NOT talking for 9 hours??!!!! That will breake the "Mah Family Book of Record" and my grandparents will be SHOCKED like all their grandchildren are giving birth on the very same day!!!!

Haihz...FeFe will be going to work at 4pm (coz he has a good heart for not dissapointing his manager and although he did not tell the whole truth), Kent is going out with his smoking kaki again for some guy business, Xiao Zhen Zhen went back to Melacca for her Taiwan C tong xue, Hui Hui went to aunty's house and Ah Yang went for internship long ago~~~

Yes...this is why i am so darn bored at home!! Dun ask me why i am not going back hometown....i WANTED to and i went back last Saturday and came back to this boring+money using place on Monday night!!!

I am speechless....and all i can do now is Farm Town, Taiwan dramasss and blog.

*Talk to me...speak with me...*

Okay lo...i DIAM

Rainbow

People always says there's always rainbow after the rain. But...where is my rainbow? I know there will be sun....but when will it comes out after the heavy storm n rain?

It shouldn't be an emo post after i've abandoned this bloggie for so darn long....but i just cant help it man. There's so many happy and happening things for me to update, but yet...i've chosen to write bout the emo side of myself. Sorry....will try to update more happy things yea!

M.I.A

This will be a fast and short lil post.

I will be M.I.A for 2-3 weeks....so will be back to this bloggie around 15 June.

Not that am going for vacation or going back hometown and there is no internet connection. NO!!! Kuala Kangsar kinda IN also okay....got Maybank and KFC!!!
Just that i will be super busy with assignments and church ministry for this coming 2 weeks.

So...see ya guys~!!! For those whom i ignore in the chat box, sorry yea~Will get back to you guys ASAP!!!

Love ya guys, muackssss~!!! ^^

Here you go Sylvia

1. The person who tagged you is:
Sylvia

2. Your relationship with him/her is:
She's my "leng"

3. Your first impression of him/her is:
Hmm...she's nice

4. The most memorable moments with he/she is:
She is way more crazier than me

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you is:
Ah Ma~~~

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will...
Impossible

7. If he/she became your lover, what should he/she improve that:
Cut short her hair...Lolx

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, what will you do:
We'r one family under God's house

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
devil attack

10. The most desired things you want to do for him/her now is:
fnish this tag and continue with my assign

11. Your overall impression on him/her is: donno..
Her look hide her crazyness....

12. The characteristic you love most about yourself:
Kind..?

13. The characteristic you hate most about yourself:
That will be kind as well

14. The most ideal person you want to be is:
Papa and Mama

15. For people who care and love you, say something to them:
God loves you and i love you too~!!! Mwahhhh

坏人

我是世上最坏的人咧～！！！

心机重死去！！！啊～～～～

扫我一巴掌，让我醒来！！！醒醒吧你~！！！！

猪吗你？！！！！

现在是怎样啊？自己死就好了，为什么还要拉着全世界的人跟你一起陪葬？

你以为你是谁啊，秦始王吗现在？要整百个人甚至是一万百千三百五十几个人跟你一起受害吗！！

Hennah Hennah....我懂也承认啦！我也是有做坏事的一个小朋友，所以我才会那么的生气。可是这些东西很难讲的啊！！往往会你认为你没有做到，可是却被认为有啊！！！

现在是怎样？你是猪吗！！！！！！！

原来

再坚强的人，

也会有脆弱的时候。

原来。。。

每个人都需要一个肩膀。

Heartnest Trip

Monday 4 May, 2009-Midnight
Chern Lin and i were busy packing for our trip. Both of us were cracking our head thinking what to wear, which baju and seluar or skirt to match for which destination. I was busy thinking what to wear with which kasut while Chern Lin was busy changing and trying the cloths. Lolx...please don't kill me! This is typical girl okay~~As HCH went back to Kuala Kangsar already, we still don't want to let her off so easily. Hahahha...so me, Chern Lin and Felix were busy asking and getting her opinion on what to wear!!! Hahahhaha...guess how she reacted?

Both Kent and Yang said us sampat, duno gan cheong for what. According to them, it is just a trip!!! Heng....who knows, both of them were the EARLIST person to wake up the next morning and they were the most HYPER ppl!!!

Tuesday 5 May, 2009
Boarded the bus to Royal Town at 11.30am with 4 other housemates~!!! Wohooo~~this is my very first time going back kampung with a bunch of friends from other state! So happy wei~~!! At 2.30pm, we reached Kuala Kangsar~!!!! Weeheeee~~First destination, Cosway Sotckist Center which is one of my business outlets. Lolx~My parents were so happy to see them!! Hahahha...especially my mum okay~She asyik look at their one-act-one-move, trying to remember each of them and their personality.

After Cosway, HCH came and took them to Yue Lai to menjamu selera! Hahaha~Yue Lai is an old famous Chinese shop which sell Pau and Chicken Chop. That's their famous dish okay~When i was primary school and got the chance to represent my school in story telling, my teacher took me there and makan okay! Hahaha...yeah, so after makan, took them to visit the Masjid Ubudiah (the riot place in KK), the Palace and also one of the muzium which uses no paku to build. Yeah....no paku, dont ask me how, am not architecture student.

For over 20 years living in Kuala Kangsar, this is the very first time i took so so so so much of photos in my own kampung!!!! Hahahahha...and i feel weird~!!! >_<

Wednesday 6 May, 2009
Ipoh mari ipoh ipoh mari~!!! Here we come Ipoh!!! Hahahah...had dim sum for breakfast in one of the famous dim sum outlets. Felix really xiao sui-kan us la, let the whole world knows that we are visitors by taking videos from the door of the shop to where we were seated!! The workers in the shop were like the botak eagles and we were like the mayat, they surround us and prepare to put ANY dim sum on the table without asking whether we want it or not!! But the dim sum is really delicious okay...this one i cannot deny it la~

Then went to visit the Guasss in Ipoh. That was my very first time visiting the guasss okay, i have given my very first time to my fellow housematess!!! Lolx...Its nice and chilling inside the gua i tell you, i will build my vacation house inside the gua if i have the money! Hahaha...Then we went to the famous mysterious Kellie's Castle. Its okay okay la...have to pay RM3 to go in also, apa la ni! And i cant believe there are people who went there and took wedding photoss...>_< The weather was super de hawt and so HCH and i decided to remain outside the castle.

It was a fun and super tired day la~And the most kesian part was...our stomach is always full with food!!! We don't have the time to digest the food we ate before consuming another delicacy~!!! Hahahha...now am having headache on how to minimize my tayar. >_<

Thursday 7 May, 2009
Wohooo~~Another sunny day for our last outing!! Taiping is the destination and of cause everything must start with a good breakfast right? Had a heavy brunch there with Char Kuey Tiao, Mee Rebus, Chee Cheong Fun and Leng Chee Kang~!!! *Slurpsss* We were like dinosaur, eating looks of lots of food and pilling up the platessss.....hahahaha~ Really scare the aunties and uncles in Taiping.

Took lots of lots fo lots of pictures in Lake Garden there!!! Hahahahha...as if we were taking wedding photos~Lolx. The weather is still hawt in Taiping but luckily there were really lots of rain trees along the way~So still can control the volume of our sweat la! Guess what CL and Fi Fi did when we were busy taking pictures? They were busy preparing their new Chinese New Year album!!!! Both of them were recording music video for their new album next year!!! Arhhh~~I tell you....the whole Lake Garden also can hear their loud speaker voice!!! "Gong Xi Gong Xi, wo Lai Chern Lin zhu da jia....." >_<

*Blink your eyes once* Yes...time flies just like that and it is time for them to go back KL!!! Arhhh~~~so fast Kuala Kangsar will be as quiet as usual. Hahahha...

Really treasure this trip with you guys eh~~Cant wait for college to start and gila together again!!! Hahahah...how good it is if college start edy but then no need to rush for assig~

Sayonara~~

The Princess of Royal Town will be going back home TOMORROW~!!!! Wohoooo~~~~

I am so excited wei~~~I've not been back to my palace for one month!! Can you imagine that?!! Satu BULAN!!! My goodness...i am so not a filial child. (If you've not back home for one month, yes, you are not a filial one as well)

But now, i am preparing to go home~!!!! Yipeeeeee!!!! And the best part is....*Deng Deng Deng* I am not going back alone this time. I am going back with my dear housematessss and they are going to have a 3 days 2 nights Perak trip~!!!! Heheheheh

Well, first of all i want to give credit to Ms.Lai Chern Lin as she is the one who Says Out Louad that she wants to go and see our kampung!! And walah~~~Here we go!!

And secondly, to my housematesss who agreed and make this trip a success. Without them, we will not be having a full 6 housematesss trip!! (Wohoo~~sounds like a speech now)

Last but not least, how can i NOT mention Michael Loh Wei Chong's name!!! Thankz ya Mic for taking me around looking for Petronas. (I just don't understand why i said such words to him, but...it is from my heart okay)

Princess will be back to hometown and i will be back.....not so SOON~~~!!!! Lolx

5 tickets to Kuala Kangsar~Wohoooo!!!!

Am PURE Chinese

For over 20 years, i've heard people said that i got some BANANA thing in me.

Ah well, in high school that's because my English is 10% slightly better than my friends. And so...i got the Banana name thing.

At home, Ms.Lai call me Banan because i like Western more than Chinese thing. Ya, i abit崇洋，but i did not unlike Chinese thing okay. I still find Chinese poems, Cheng Yu and stuff interesting okay...and i am proud to know Chinese language!

Guess what happend today? Emily Kong from CYC told me the N time that, she still thinks that i am a Banana like Kong Mun Suet. Nevermind...i know its because i stick KMS too much and kena influenced by her. Then the worst part was.....she said my Chinese sounds so BANANA!!! OMGoodness, KMS this is your fault la!!!! For over 20 years, only people said my Chinese is so accurate, never anyone told me this...Super sad lo...:(

I sing Chinese song in karaoke also very accurate de lo my Chinese (according to my housemates and those who sang with me before). Her words are like the thousand of needlessss...poking my heart, so deep. Haihz...she's the first one to tell me so straight forward lo actually. Last year, me friend's boyfriend from China said "I think we better converse in English, i don't understand your Chinese. Very sorry, i really don't understand"......Swt betul.

So now what? Should i take Chinese language intensive course instead?!!! Sorry hor...i know 文言文，成语，诗和词。Sorry to say la...i don't want to be in the same geng with those bananasss, die die also don't want!!!!

Wo Shi Long de Chuan Ren~!!!!!

Dun care!!!

I want to marry a pianist~!!!! I dun care~~~~~~

Die die also want to marry a pianist.



See~~~He is so darn de GENG!!!! If my future husband propose to me in this way, i will IMMEDIATELY maryy him!!!! Don't care if the whole world anti us, i will still marry him~~!!!!!Lol~^^

B.G.R

When you don't have it, you frust and envy those couple.
When you have it, you frust and envy those single people.
When you'r too far to have it, you build your own imagination bridge.
When you'r near to get it, you feel like its a piece of cake.

Bo Sou gor said it is a HUGE decision to decide whether to marry or not and with whom to marry with. Well you see, married can be a blessing for your entire life and it can also be a curse that haunt you eternally. That is why Christian always believe that God will provide the right couple for us.

However, we should not misunderstand that He will actually choose the life partner for you. It is His job to place the right person around you, but it is your job to choose the correct partner. I lactually like this statement. Yea...God never decides anything for us. He shows us the correct way and it is up to us to follow or not to. :)

Talking about the 3 myths of love relationship...i guess somehow i ter-kena one of them. Lolx
1) True love can conquer everything.
The 有情喝水饱 doesn't work in reality. Love is not blindness, it is sharing and caring.
If a guy hits you with the chair, should you be thankful that he did not use the iron? If you do, then you'r already in the very first myth.

2) Love at first side is true love.
Many people believes at this, but it is a big NO NO!!! Not to say that love at first side is 100% a wrong thing, but you should always remember that true love needs time to foster. When you get to know that person more, you'll discover lots of hidden identity that you never aspect,
*This is why i never want to know him more personally* :p

3)Perfect partner can fufill all your needs wholly
Whot?!!!! No one is 100% perfect in the whole universe okay!!! Even my Hong gor also has his own dark side. You have to pay a price and earn for it, its a sharing process. Never never think that love is a business. Marketing and management doesn't work this way okay~Don't compete with each other about having a partner...you will die hard hard i tell you.

Wei Yi jie also further explains the 8 types of non-productive love relationship.
1)You care more about your partner, more than he or she does
2) You love your partner's potential
3)You want to help your partner
4) Your partner is your worhip idol
5)You are only attracted to his/her phsical appearance
6)Meet with each other day and night in a short term (sparks will come out if you work with someone on a continuous project) *danger*
7)Choose your partner out of rebellion/revenge/for a purpose
8)Your partner is not single/UNAVAILABLE (then you will be the 3rd person)

Life is never easy, yet love is more complicated and way more hard. Its a roller-coaster. ^^ Think twice before you do anything that will make yourself regret for the rest of your life. Remember...always examine your heart. Never Chong Dong~~!!!!!

Officially down

Arhhhh~~~~Assignment, assignment, assignment!!!! Memang the month of assignment.

Once i open my eyes, my brain is full of Advertising, Intro to Digital Media, Media Contexts and Principles of Broadcasting. WHat?!!!! This is so cacat lo~~~And when its time to close my eyes, the only thing that came to my mind was....when can i reach the word count?

And now....i am officially down~Down gao gao that type tim!!! No pre-warning signs or what for me, just suddenly come and i am still struggling with it. OMG.....i wana go home.

Still wana act "sat" when i take this super huge medicine given by Hui Hui. Haihz....bila can i say "bye bye" to them? Tell me....

Milk

A tiny little cup of milk that sooths my assignment night. *Slurp* I feel like home now....like a little girl sitting on the sofa with my pillow zai drinking the milk boiled by Mama~

Can you smell the milky taste of this cup of milk? Its boiled by my lovely housemate, Yang. Its been so long since i last drank pure milk~~Ooh....i missed the taste of it! ^^

I swear am gona ask Mama make a cup of milo for me when i go back next week!!!

Plan FAILED

Was planning to go home this weekend, desperately miss home. So i plan that, no matter what happens, i die die also wana go back this week. But....apparently, my plan FAILED.

Haihz....how to die die also want to go back if my dad says "Then next week only you follow your brother's car back lo?" Or is it....my heart already don't have the fire to die die do what i've planned?

Where is my "die die" semangat?

又伊莫了

一个人的感觉很糟糕啊~！！！！！！！ 曾经何时我还蛮享受一个人的，可是现在。。。竟然伊莫了！

刚才在教会看了他们的话剧，突然超想家的。不知道爸爸妈妈们现在怎么了，过得还好吗，有没有瘦了，没有我在旁边吵个不停都不知他们在讲些什么话题。。。。。我要回家。好羡慕张家俊同学咧，家里会有等待他回家的父母，晚迟了会有催他回家的电话。曾几何时，我也尝试过。

对啊，那时候的我超向往可以像一只自由自在的鸟，脱离父母的怀抱飞出去。可是现在我累了，真的累了。不管年级多大的孩子，最终还是需要回到父母的怀抱吧~因为只有那里才是最温暖的地方。

肚子饿，就要自己想破头要吃什么。打包了楼下的maggie goreng回来，谁人懂比吃一百条辣椒还要糟糕。想要辣死我吗现在？一个人吃的超级无敌辣辣面还真的是很折磨。。。丢掉的话就是浪费食物，吃完的话就是要进医院洗胃。幸好在这浩瀚的世界还有那么体贴的housemate们,一个义务要帮我煮面，另一个就义务要帮我吃掉那包辣面。冷漠的心突然有了温度，谢谢你们。

现在我要睡觉了。下个星期，我死死也要回家！！

Skipping out from assignments

Sunday, 5th April 2009

Yeah~~~This is the day where we have really lots of fun!!! Was busy taking pictures here and there, teasing the Johnson supervisor and bullying our leader~!!!! Hahahahha....yes, AT LAST we have the chance to do so.

Well, i have to admit that Robin Ooi Choon Keat is really a good leader after all. Ignore the hiao-ness and random-ness that likes to scare we tiba-tiba, he really treats people whole-heartedly. Not to say i want to praise him, its just that sometimes you really don't know how to react when he did something really stupid and so not funny (but he alone laughs like anything in his heart i guess).

Its always not too late for wishing you a Happy Birthday ya zhu zhang~!!! Hehehe....you'r officially 20 years old already, so please act like one okay. :)

Bday boy of the day that refused to change his shirt no matter what happens!!! Kek dao....

Here is all my camwhore pics~~Hahahha...plz bear with me, too long didn't take solo pics with others already. ^^

Hahahha...OMG, i am seeing so many versions of myself here!!!!!!

Okla, here are some of the normal pics of the day.

Dine in this place

Order this duno what green-tea milk recomended by Johnson the supervisor. And it tastes....Yuacksss~~~Not my cup of tea!!!

How often do we see this side of him? Lolx

Part of Heart 6 that rocks for Him forever!!!!