Frustrated

OMG....which bad words should i apply to express my feelings now? I dun wana stay here anymore!!! Spare me once plz....i dun wana hide from the cat everyday, everytime, everywhere. Dennis, i totally understand what phobia means to you now (although its a different case).

I know we should have a caring and loving heart for animals, and yes i do have. But just for fish la plz......Yeah, i know the cat is innocent and it doesn't have brain lke human to think wisely. BUT...because of this, it is more DEVIL than anything!!! I went to bathroom, it wants to follow and "rape" me. I came out, it wants to lick me. I open the door, its outside waiting to scare me. I sat there doing my work, it comes near me. OMG~~!!! Cat oooo Cat, i dun wana be friend with you! Plz la....u already had the landlord and his stupid gf (who condemn on Communication) and also tat hosemate who always sayang u so much....tat's enough for u edy. Just don't be so greedy! I won't touch or hug or smile or praise you, instead i'll kick or whack or throw or squeeze you. You have so much toys there, go play with it!!! Leave me alone~!!! Don't scare me...i can't stand it anymore. I'll really die of scareness someday if you still continue to do this to me. Or...is this what u wana see? So u'll stay in this house happily ever after. Gosh....tat's so evil of u! Tell u what, I CAN BE VERY VIOLENCE!!!

Leave the cat aside....The gf is really a dumb dumb!!! She put duno what weired plants inside the house and never change water. Guess what i'm looking at now? Rite....its the wriggler swimming inside the "aquarium". OMG....why cant they be clean juz ONCE? Rear cat, plant leaf inside the house....what more they wana do? I dun wana get into the hospital bcoz of the Aedes, i dun wana get heart attack bcoz of the cat! Oh man....this couple is undescribeable!!!

I went to coll pissed off 2day coz my attack came back. What is tat? I dun wana take medicine again, i dun wana rely on it! I'll be normal and healthy with clean air and environment. No fur, No smoke, No Aedes!!! Gosh...why everything seems to come agaisnt me? I'm juz 19.....

I Hate ME

Blur Blur Blur....am always so blur and careless no matter what i do. What is happening to me lately? I don't like being like this again, i hate it!!!
Went to Neway wif Dennis and Ju Enn, yup...its quite fun although that was juz 3 of us. When we about to leave, i paid first and we went off JUZ LIKE TAT. I din even noticed or remembered about the change...blur untill i duno they haven't gave me bck my change! When i reacehd Ridzuan, only than i remembered. OMG...called Dennis and checked with him, he said no receipt or anything. At tat moment, i hate myself. Hate myself for being so careless and blur......Yes, i used to be lke tat during high school. And tat time, í was always been looking after by Ka, Weng and Jeff. Who than now? I dun wana be like tat, i wana be independent. I dun wan anyone looking after me, help cleaning up my mess juz like before.
When Dennis asked whether wana go bck and take MY change, i said "duno". Yup, at tat moment i really duno. Coz the hatred covered all my emotions....i dun care about the RM39.30, i juz hate myself!!! Ju Enn suggested tat we go and try, than at last i managed to get it bck. But than....from 4th floor of Neway i get scolded untill we nearly reached coll. Yes....i deserve it, i admit. Its my fault, i should not be so blur AGAIN, should not blame the worker for not giving bck the change, should not blame the management. What right have i to blame others? Its my own responsibility....i nv learnt any lesson since high scool.
Yup...tat was rude of me when saying "Thank you" to Dennis. What's tat tone? Am not sincere at all, sounds like gangster. Sorry fren.....He can dump me aside and went to PINK Thing wif Ju Enn, but he didn't. He can charge me for the petrol coz its quite jam, but he didn't. What had i did? Keep creating troubles to all my frens and forced them to clean up the mess. Tat was so bad and cruel of me....Guys, seriously, i duno who will be the nxt "victim". If u wana leave my alone, plz do so. I'll be very happy! Dun feel sorry for me, coz u will feel sorry for urself at the end of the day.
It was indeed very tired yday. But than...duno who go and turn off the main paip and i din noticed tat there is a paip. I ended up bathing using water from the basin and i planed to soak my head in it. Tat was so stupid of me, right? Why i cant be clever juz ONCE and noticed somethg? My fren was right, he said he will never wana marry a clumsy gal like me. Yup, i will nv wana be someone's gf too coz tat will really be very kesian of him.
More to come for me...My landlord and his gf took a cat from downstair and rear it!!! What is tat?!! Why wana torture HCH and me? I hate animals, it smells and it runs and walks. Its fur are all over the places and i'm so not wana go to coll wif cat's fur and smells following me!!! Their master room has toilet, and why they dun wana use there to wash the cat? Why wana use "our bathroom" and bath it!!! I cant stand it!!!! Although CH is the only one who washed the toilet and i shouldn't complaint so much, but i use it too! We dun wana see any fur inside the toilet, we dun wana hv anythg running around the living room. Dun make us throw it too the tennis court from 7th floor and ended up others hv to clean up the dead body. Dun make me kick the cat coz its alr very kesian and skinny. I CAN BE VERY VIOLENCE!!!
Living room is my teritary, every nite i'll sit there, do my work and on9. But now bcoz of the at i'm foced to hide inside my room. Try to imagine, if 2molo there's some assignment due, how am i suppose to finish it? If i fail to finish, wat am i going to tell the lectures? "Sorry Ms/Sir, i cant finish bcoz there's a cat in the living room running around and i cant stand it bcoz i hv asthma." Does it make sense? Its juz another LAME excuse!!!!
What is tat? WHy everythg bad keep hapening to me? Dun come near me.....u'll curse by me.

Thankz for da Break~!!

That was so much fun today!!! Bcoz of the cancellation of POJ class, we got 4 hours break, and we really make full use of it. 11 of us, Dennis, Syafiq, Wan, Sherry, Sue May, Sharon, Ju Enn, Mohani, Nazihah, Chern Lin and I went to pyramid to hv some fun! OMG....tat was realy fun. Some of us went shopping for PINK thing and the others went for movie.
At first the shopping was bored.....everyone like dun hv the semangat and juz looking around, flipping the clothes and so. Than when we were in Nichii (spelling correct?), duno who suggested that we juz pick a dress or anything than go and try. That's when the fun part comes in! Sherry (the hot gal), dOnkey, GG and me juz simply pick some dress and went to try. OMG....we looked funny in it wei~~ Seriously, juz Sherry is gud enough for the dresses. I tried dOnkey's choice and tat was SO tight...i cant breath wearing that dress. GG picked an English Lady style for me and that looks so weired~~@_@ Sherry's choice was nice and hot, but the price is SUPER DUPER hot as well!!!
While waiting for Sherry, 3 of us play gila things inside the fitting room. Use tongue to touch our nose and use lips to reach out nose as well~~ Gila betul man!!! 3 of us juz kept laughing inside and the ppl outside juz kept looking at us....Are we 19?? Hah...
After that we continue to go gila and than went bck to 4pm class at 4.16....pity Mr.Anu, coz most of us went to pyramid edy~ Not our fault eh....traffic jam, we wana go bck on time oso~Yea right! Hah...gud thing he din scold us~
Break time for today was really fun!!! We managed to take some photos too and i'm waiting for Sherry to upload it than i can curi from her. Haha~Oh ya....all of us ended up getting NOTHG pink.......speechless
But still, it was great! Thankz guys for the Fun Day~!

I am So BAD

I am so BAD!!! All my frens kena juz bcoz of me~~!!! I've set up all my frenz~~!!! OMG....
Yesterday, i put dOnkey's aeroplane. I promised to go KLCC for the Olympic TOrch wif her but i ended up sleeping in my room. Yes...i was super duper tired that time, i should get some rest. But the thing is, i shouldn't promise her at the first place. Everyone should go to her blog and look at that photo which specially design for me.......
Than juz now, next victim is Eva. She would not be SO LATE for CF if not bcoz of me.....She had to fetch me from pyramid and than send my fren bck to Ridzuan and Mentari. Than on the way....traffic jam somemore!!!! Arr.....she's late bcoz of me!! That's so bad of me....
There's one more...worst this one!! I, Mah Chia Ying, had gave 100% promised to Dennis to pass up his CRR essay and ended up i FORGOT~!!! OMG....See how bad is me!!! And what makes me feel more guilty is....he's not angry at all!!
OMG..........Punch me, Whack me, Kick me, Pintch me....do anything u wan, guys!!!!
Sorry guys.......

What a day~

OMG...i never been so brave before!!!
CCS class for Friday starts at 8 and my alarm rang at 6.30, just as usual. I turn it off and continue with my sweet dream. I plan to wake up at 6.30 or maybe 6.45.....Who knows at last i woke up at 7.56!!! OMG~~!!! And that was when Kent send message telling me to go coll first, i said ok and thinking...why he's telling me this so early! *Blur* Feeling strange i looked at the time, and that was WHAT!!!! OMG~~~Class starts at 8 and i just woke up!! To cut the story short, i reached LT1 at 9.30, walked IN (so brave) and sat down, just like i'm very punctual. Luckily Mr. Anu took my attendance...that was so nice of him! ^^
Somehow for CRR class i lost my courage to present infornt of 72 coursemates....*SLAP SLAP* On Wednesday, i said that i wanted to be the 1st to present~! *Faint* At last i din even present just now....haiz....feel so dissapointed to myself. I'm as big as a bull, but i'm a timid bull! OMG~~
Finish lunch and i knew that i'm walking back all alone....Serve me right for timid ya~ That's what i told myself, nvm...i'll enjoy the "scenery". But somehow, i met Dennis and he offered to sent me back with his white MyV!! Owh....That was so sweet of him~~ ^^ See....There's still warmth and hope in this world! Hehe

Tearing apart......

Planetshakers is awesome!!! I'm hoping to have lots of fun before i went and i did hv fun~!! But...i'm not happy now, crying doesnt seems to make me feel better. Why this happend to me? Why now? Why choose today to let me know? Why it has to be you, my dear?
I'd rather be a fool and keep on moving instead of knowing it. I'd rather you lie to me instead of being honest to me. I'm juz 19....dun torture me. I'm hoping for a brand new life in KL, wana have fun here. Trying to run away from the dark side, but now a darker side came to me.
How am i going to smile again? I dun hv any sunshine anymore....coz you burnt urself down. Truly dissapointed. I hope the best for you, try to help you up when i could. Now, there's too much dust around you.....how am i going to move further? I dun wana hate u!!
Why i know it now? There's no one beside to comfort me, there aint any shoulder for me to lean against. Its empty here, nothing! Juz the wind from the fan trying to blow away the tears, juz pillow and bloster lending me their hugs, and tis notebook letting me on9 to write my feelings. Hannah shocked when i called....and there's too many question marks running in her mind. Sorry, i can't tell what happened to me.
Hope to have someone here now....not to comfort or accompany me, juz lend me ur hand and hit me untill i faint. Hit untill i lost my memory. I need a volunteer!!!
Guys, plz pray for me......i'm tearing apart now

Need HELP Desperately

OMG...PR Essay due nxt Thursday and i'm still hvnt decide which topic to write on! What should i do now??!!! I used about 2 weeks to do my PJ assignment, and now, all i left is juz 4 DAYS!!! God plz help me.....My senior said: " No big deal~ U'r gud enough to finish it in a short period." Am i?? Ur head la!!! I'm not that GENG wei~
When doing my PJ assignment, i went down to the grocery shop almost everyday to buy Moos ice-cream to keep myself awake and that, too keeps me go heavier. OMG....now what for PR? Ice-cream again?? If anyone sees me buying ice-cream or cold drinks, PLZ stop me, slap me, kick me!!! If not, i'll be Ridzuan's first "Shumo"....@_@
Chin Hoi went bck, Felix too, Nazihah, Chern Lin, Kent....and Joash ( juz sampat and found out). Why...? Why all the ppl i know going bck at the same time!!! Luckily Hermia and Hannah din go bck.....If not i'll cry untill to the floor (2008, March, Felix).
My bro juz asked whether i wana sleep at his place or not this two nights....i say "NO" confidently coz i think i'll be fine here, ALONE. Who knows now....feels like going there to sleep. "Slap, Slap"
Come on...i'm 19 now!!!! Dun think of Kent's scary story!!!! I hate him now!!!

Emo CRR class

Today we had a kinda special CRR class, its so so so EMO man!! I dun like it! Coz it juz makes me wana cry~Gosh...tat's the power of a SONG! When melody and lyrics blend together, it juz creates a great impact to everyone miraculously! I really dun like emo thgs going on....coz it makes me thing about all my bad moments. Haih~
Andrea's gospel song was so touching and nice, and this makes me feel more guilty when i listen to it. DUn make me think about tat incident again plz.....
Chern Lin's song was so encouraging and i luv it! Yes, we have to do everything with all our hearts to Stand In the Eyes of the World.
Haiz...Friday another Emo CRR class, this time i bet it'll be more Emo...coz everyone got a rough idea already. Dun make me feel wana cry...i dun lik crying infront of anyone since i'm a senior in high scool. Hmm...guess i have to start training myself to tahan d now~

Disney On Ice~!!

OMG~It was a fun and memorable day man! I went to see Disney On Ice wif my brother and his gf in Stadium Bukit Jalil~Although we were late for about have an hour bcoz of the jam, but we still managed to catch up some wonderful moment! There were so many Handsome guy ....OMG!!! U should go and hv a look! Haha....after the show, my bro bought a cute cup for me and tat cost him RM30 juz for that stupid plastic yet cute cup.So gud la him~But kesian him la...tat's he's salary for last month. So i paid bck RM20 juz for me to feel better....Hehe. Oh ya, I'll try to upload those photos taken juz now soon~Juz hv to wait for my bro to send to me.
I guess tat's all for now, coz tat's too many thgs coming ahead my mind....most is da bad one. But i juz dun wana spoil my gud mood on the show......God help me

Ok...here's the photos.

Rink side

Huh..why got two Keh Leh Feh behind de?

Tat's the cute cup and the cute spoon!

Juz wana show off my cute cup~!

Delicious (wif the cup)

What is the problem here??!!!

What is wrong with today? Why everything seems to go out off track! I hate it!!!
I was so HAPPY to nearly finished my CCS journal, and than now what? Í have to redo my Week 1 journal because of the error in saving my documents??!! I'm so sleepy...yesterday stayed up untill 3 just to do my CCS and hoping that i'll hv a gud sleep tonite. But now, another 3 am sleeping time? I hate it!!!
This whole day was so frustrated and angy.....Dun asked me to teach you how to do ur work, i dun hv the patient! Dun asked me to explained what the lecture meant, i'm not a genius! Dun asked me this and that, i dun wana use bad words infront of my frens! Dun call me by hitting me, i dun like tat and my name sounds nice to me! Dun touched me 'accidentally', i dun wana hv any intimacy wif u!!
I bear with all these things the whole day! I can get angry, i'm not as good as u think it is! I too know how to say bad words!!

God, plz help me to concentrate

OMG...Its already 10 p.m , and i'm juz about to strat McCroskey reading....How am i suppose to finish it before i fell asleep?? Gosh.....
Duno why, while i'm still so panic here...suddenly i thought about CF. That's right! I can ask Him to help me up! Why din i thought about that earlier...? No wonder my parents keep asking me to join CF when i came to coll.
God, plz help me to concentrate....I need more energy to focus! And also for the rest of my coursemates, i hope they'r doing better than me, at least not struggling like what i am now.
Focus gal!!!!