OMG...i never been so brave before!!!
CCS class for Friday starts at 8 and my alarm rang at 6.30, just as usual. I turn it off and continue with my sweet dream. I plan to wake up at 6.30 or maybe 6.45.....Who knows at last i woke up at 7.56!!! OMG~~!!! And that was when Kent send message telling me to go coll first, i said ok and thinking...why he's telling me this so early! *Blur* Feeling strange i looked at the time, and that was WHAT!!!! OMG~~~Class starts at 8 and i just woke up!! To cut the story short, i reached LT1 at 9.30, walked IN (so brave) and sat down, just like i'm very punctual. Luckily Mr. Anu took my attendance...that was so nice of him! ^^
Somehow for CRR class i lost my courage to present infornt of 72 coursemates....*SLAP SLAP* On Wednesday, i said that i wanted to be the 1st to present~! *Faint* At last i din even present just now....haiz....feel so dissapointed to myself. I'm as big as a bull, but i'm a timid bull! OMG~~
Finish lunch and i knew that i'm walking back all alone....Serve me right for timid ya~ That's what i told myself, nvm...i'll enjoy the "scenery". But somehow, i met Dennis and he offered to sent me back with his white MyV!! Owh....That was so sweet of him~~ ^^ See....There's still warmth and hope in this world! Hehe
Friday, April 18, 2008
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Tearing apart......
Planetshakers is awesome!!! I'm hoping to have lots of fun before i went and i did hv fun~!! But...i'm not happy now, crying doesnt seems to make me feel better. Why this happend to me? Why now? Why choose today to let me know? Why it has to be you, my dear?
I'd rather be a fool and keep on moving instead of knowing it. I'd rather you lie to me instead of being honest to me. I'm juz 19....dun torture me. I'm hoping for a brand new life in KL, wana have fun here. Trying to run away from the dark side, but now a darker side came to me.
How am i going to smile again? I dun hv any sunshine anymore....coz you burnt urself down. Truly dissapointed. I hope the best for you, try to help you up when i could. Now, there's too much dust around you.....how am i going to move further? I dun wana hate u!!
Why i know it now? There's no one beside to comfort me, there aint any shoulder for me to lean against. Its empty here, nothing! Juz the wind from the fan trying to blow away the tears, juz pillow and bloster lending me their hugs, and tis notebook letting me on9 to write my feelings. Hannah shocked when i called....and there's too many question marks running in her mind. Sorry, i can't tell what happened to me.
Hope to have someone here now....not to comfort or accompany me, juz lend me ur hand and hit me untill i faint. Hit untill i lost my memory. I need a volunteer!!!
Guys, plz pray for me......i'm tearing apart now
I'd rather be a fool and keep on moving instead of knowing it. I'd rather you lie to me instead of being honest to me. I'm juz 19....dun torture me. I'm hoping for a brand new life in KL, wana have fun here. Trying to run away from the dark side, but now a darker side came to me.
How am i going to smile again? I dun hv any sunshine anymore....coz you burnt urself down. Truly dissapointed. I hope the best for you, try to help you up when i could. Now, there's too much dust around you.....how am i going to move further? I dun wana hate u!!
Why i know it now? There's no one beside to comfort me, there aint any shoulder for me to lean against. Its empty here, nothing! Juz the wind from the fan trying to blow away the tears, juz pillow and bloster lending me their hugs, and tis notebook letting me on9 to write my feelings. Hannah shocked when i called....and there's too many question marks running in her mind. Sorry, i can't tell what happened to me.
Hope to have someone here now....not to comfort or accompany me, juz lend me ur hand and hit me untill i faint. Hit untill i lost my memory. I need a volunteer!!!
Guys, plz pray for me......i'm tearing apart now
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Need HELP Desperately
OMG...PR Essay due nxt Thursday and i'm still hvnt decide which topic to write on! What should i do now??!!! I used about 2 weeks to do my PJ assignment, and now, all i left is juz 4 DAYS!!! God plz help me.....My senior said: " No big deal~ U'r gud enough to finish it in a short period." Am i?? Ur head la!!! I'm not that GENG wei~
When doing my PJ assignment, i went down to the grocery shop almost everyday to buy Moos ice-cream to keep myself awake and that, too keeps me go heavier. OMG....now what for PR? Ice-cream again?? If anyone sees me buying ice-cream or cold drinks, PLZ stop me, slap me, kick me!!! If not, i'll be Ridzuan's first "Shumo"....@_@
Chin Hoi went bck, Felix too, Nazihah, Chern Lin, Kent....and Joash ( juz sampat and found out). Why...? Why all the ppl i know going bck at the same time!!! Luckily Hermia and Hannah din go bck.....If not i'll cry untill to the floor (2008, March, Felix).
My bro juz asked whether i wana sleep at his place or not this two nights....i say "NO" confidently coz i think i'll be fine here, ALONE. Who knows now....feels like going there to sleep. "Slap, Slap"
Come on...i'm 19 now!!!! Dun think of Kent's scary story!!!! I hate him now!!!
When doing my PJ assignment, i went down to the grocery shop almost everyday to buy Moos ice-cream to keep myself awake and that, too keeps me go heavier. OMG....now what for PR? Ice-cream again?? If anyone sees me buying ice-cream or cold drinks, PLZ stop me, slap me, kick me!!! If not, i'll be Ridzuan's first "Shumo"....@_@
Chin Hoi went bck, Felix too, Nazihah, Chern Lin, Kent....and Joash ( juz sampat and found out). Why...? Why all the ppl i know going bck at the same time!!! Luckily Hermia and Hannah din go bck.....If not i'll cry untill to the floor (2008, March, Felix).
My bro juz asked whether i wana sleep at his place or not this two nights....i say "NO" confidently coz i think i'll be fine here, ALONE. Who knows now....feels like going there to sleep. "Slap, Slap"
Come on...i'm 19 now!!!! Dun think of Kent's scary story!!!! I hate him now!!!
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Emo CRR class
Today we had a kinda special CRR class, its so so so EMO man!! I dun like it! Coz it juz makes me wana cry~Gosh...tat's the power of a SONG! When melody and lyrics blend together, it juz creates a great impact to everyone miraculously! I really dun like emo thgs going on....coz it makes me thing about all my bad moments. Haih~
Andrea's gospel song was so touching and nice, and this makes me feel more guilty when i listen to it. DUn make me think about tat incident again plz.....
Chern Lin's song was so encouraging and i luv it! Yes, we have to do everything with all our hearts to Stand In the Eyes of the World.
Haiz...Friday another Emo CRR class, this time i bet it'll be more Emo...coz everyone got a rough idea already. Dun make me feel wana cry...i dun lik crying infront of anyone since i'm a senior in high scool. Hmm...guess i have to start training myself to tahan d now~
Andrea's gospel song was so touching and nice, and this makes me feel more guilty when i listen to it. DUn make me think about tat incident again plz.....
Chern Lin's song was so encouraging and i luv it! Yes, we have to do everything with all our hearts to Stand In the Eyes of the World.
Haiz...Friday another Emo CRR class, this time i bet it'll be more Emo...coz everyone got a rough idea already. Dun make me feel wana cry...i dun lik crying infront of anyone since i'm a senior in high scool. Hmm...guess i have to start training myself to tahan d now~
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Disney On Ice~!!
OMG~It was a fun and memorable day man! I went to see Disney On Ice wif my brother and his gf in Stadium Bukit Jalil~Although we were late for about have an hour bcoz of the jam, but we still managed to catch up some wonderful moment! There were so many Handsome guy ....OMG!!! U should go and hv a look! Haha....after the show, my bro bought a cute cup for me and tat cost him RM30 juz for that stupid plastic yet cute cup.So gud la him~But kesian him la...tat's he's salary for last month. So i paid bck RM20 juz for me to feel better....Hehe. Oh ya, I'll try to upload those photos taken juz now soon~Juz hv to wait for my bro to send to me.
I guess tat's all for now, coz tat's too many thgs coming ahead my mind....most is da bad one. But i juz dun wana spoil my gud mood on the show......God help me
I guess tat's all for now, coz tat's too many thgs coming ahead my mind....most is da bad one. But i juz dun wana spoil my gud mood on the show......God help me
Ok...here's the photos.
Rink side
Huh..why got two Keh Leh Feh behind de?
Tat's the cute cup and the cute spoon!
Juz wana show off my cute cup~!
Delicious (wif the cup)
Thursday, April 3, 2008
What is the problem here??!!!
What is wrong with today? Why everything seems to go out off track! I hate it!!!
I was so HAPPY to nearly finished my CCS journal, and than now what? Í have to redo my Week 1 journal because of the error in saving my documents??!! I'm so sleepy...yesterday stayed up untill 3 just to do my CCS and hoping that i'll hv a gud sleep tonite. But now, another 3 am sleeping time? I hate it!!!
This whole day was so frustrated and angy.....Dun asked me to teach you how to do ur work, i dun hv the patient! Dun asked me to explained what the lecture meant, i'm not a genius! Dun asked me this and that, i dun wana use bad words infront of my frens! Dun call me by hitting me, i dun like tat and my name sounds nice to me! Dun touched me 'accidentally', i dun wana hv any intimacy wif u!!
I bear with all these things the whole day! I can get angry, i'm not as good as u think it is! I too know how to say bad words!!
I was so HAPPY to nearly finished my CCS journal, and than now what? Í have to redo my Week 1 journal because of the error in saving my documents??!! I'm so sleepy...yesterday stayed up untill 3 just to do my CCS and hoping that i'll hv a gud sleep tonite. But now, another 3 am sleeping time? I hate it!!!
This whole day was so frustrated and angy.....Dun asked me to teach you how to do ur work, i dun hv the patient! Dun asked me to explained what the lecture meant, i'm not a genius! Dun asked me this and that, i dun wana use bad words infront of my frens! Dun call me by hitting me, i dun like tat and my name sounds nice to me! Dun touched me 'accidentally', i dun wana hv any intimacy wif u!!
I bear with all these things the whole day! I can get angry, i'm not as good as u think it is! I too know how to say bad words!!
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
God, plz help me to concentrate
OMG...Its already 10 p.m , and i'm juz about to strat McCroskey reading....How am i suppose to finish it before i fell asleep?? Gosh.....
Duno why, while i'm still so panic here...suddenly i thought about CF. That's right! I can ask Him to help me up! Why din i thought about that earlier...? No wonder my parents keep asking me to join CF when i came to coll.
God, plz help me to concentrate....I need more energy to focus! And also for the rest of my coursemates, i hope they'r doing better than me, at least not struggling like what i am now.
Focus gal!!!!
Duno why, while i'm still so panic here...suddenly i thought about CF. That's right! I can ask Him to help me up! Why din i thought about that earlier...? No wonder my parents keep asking me to join CF when i came to coll.
God, plz help me to concentrate....I need more energy to focus! And also for the rest of my coursemates, i hope they'r doing better than me, at least not struggling like what i am now.
Focus gal!!!!
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