Hate to WAIT anymore!!!

I was born with a quite sabar heart. I can wait for people for many minutes, hours, days and even weeks. But now, i've changed. I can hardly wait for ANYONE at ANYTIME anymore!!! I tell you....since the first sem, i will always be the person who wait for others and ended up, i am the one who rugi. Huh....i know patience is the best policy, but not now lo!!!

Waiting for a hug or for his food? Be patient....

I tell you how i feel from the very beginning to the end. My fren always ajak me eat dinner with her, of coz i am very happy la!! Coz we are the BEST jie mei during high school. Then when the time comes, i will have to wait for her for almost half and hour to 45 minutes....EVERY time Ok!!! And it is Dinner time!! I tell you....a hungry man is an angry man, totally agree with it!!! I've already had this experiance for about 5-6 times, yes....not more than 10 and this is my limit lo!! Waiting is always suffering Ok......

Juz like waiting at the end of the bridge, for no one......

And you know wat, days before....she ajak me makan again la. Since i was alone and wondering what to eat, so was happy and agree la! This time i was clever enough, not to wait downstair alone for her. COz i dun wana look like a "just break-off" person standing alone there again. Mana tau i waited untill the time past about 20 minutes already and she did not call me!!! Wow....so stress lo i tell you. For a normal case, i sure will call untill my fren's phone pecah de lo!! But she din even call me~~ So sad lo.....Actually i dun wana talk bad bout her since she always teman me makan when am alone. But just now, ya...i mean just now, it happend again!!!

Huh...so stress lo!! I came bck from CF and found out that my roomate "isolate" herself again for assig, so i call this fren and she said she WANTS to teman me la. So...Oklo, i wait for her downstair. I started to wait from 7.50 to 8.17!!!! OMG....i am so gona scream lo that time. Imagine...people are stuffing hot food into their stomach while i am sittinf there acompanied by the cold wind! Guess that's what they alays meant by "eat north-west wind" huh....I tell you, i told myself that i am so gona went bck my room and starve for the rest of the day if she is not coming down at 8.15! Mana tau tau...i waited untill 8.17, she called and asked where am i. Huh....speechless la!!!

Wat more can i said other than asked her "why are you late?"

Lesson Day

Wow~~I am so semangat now!! I tell you why....because tomorrow i will be having piano lesson specially teach by Princess Eva. Wohoo~~sounds so royal family kan? Hahaha...i tell you, she really can play well de lo! Dun let her innocent face tipu u guys~~

Princess, i am waiting for ur strict lesson tomorrow. Oh ya....if i ter-wrong, plzzzz dun scold me ya! I have a fragile heart. Hahhaha...Ok, will update ASAP when i had my very first lesson tomorrow! So, catch up ya!!

A tiny lil sunshine?

Hoooh....stressnya today!!! 2 presentations to prepare and guess wat time i woke up? Yes, its 1.30pm!!! And that was when i thought that i havnt started my IPD and ML slides oni i jumped up from the bed. Wow....so stress lo i tell you. I never like rainy days when i belum finish my work. Coz it makes my more stress~~!!!!! Oh ya....i tell you, my bro called me just now! And guess wat, he asked bout yesterday's CYC!!! Wohooo~~~it brightens up my noon time!! Mun Suet...PUSH~~!!!! Yeah!!

Ok...sambung~~

At first i think i will be happy again when my stomach is full, especially when it is full of sushi. Hahaha....tat was so berani i tell you. I went to pyramid and had my dinner with Mann, Mann's sis and Wen Yang. I tell you...tat time i dun even started my ML thg lo!!! Dun even had a glance of the news.....Hahhaa...sorry la Chern Lin, too stress d. Gota go out for a while! Manatau...by the time i came bck, it was already 10.30 and i am just going to start reading my news!! OMG...i am so berani! But then....so stress lo~~Have to read the news and also the ML readings....U guys oso noe how stress kan?

But now i think i'm Ok edy la....COz u know wat? Nicholas sang to me!! Ahahah...tis lame guy, cant imagine that he also have his own way to console stress ppl. Yeah....hv to admit that he is trying very hard to sing with his sexy voice la~~Hahaha....Thankz Nicholas. This is my first time a lame guy sang to me for the sake of comforting me. Hahahah....wat a unique way.

Okla....my ML is done liao, i guess so. So....should i go to bed or eat? Am feeling hungry edy la....coz laugh too much just now~~@_@

雨天

今天的天气好好。。。阴阴凉凉的，一滴汗都不用流。中午1点起身的时候还可以感受到阵阵冷风传进被单里。住了这里这么久，我还是第一次有这种感觉。醒来时就有一种48懒惰的感觉，随意就在心里打算要煮面吃。那里懂，头头也那么巧和我心有灵犀，要一起吃面面！Wohoo~~随意我们就去Felix家，吃他煮的“营养百分百泡面”！我跟你讲有多营养。。。有萝卜，鸡蛋，马铃薯和菜心！而且。。。味道还不赖哦~更令我开心的是，那是一个爱心午餐，又头头和Felix联手烹煮的~Wowwww....好饱！

有那么好吃的午餐我应该很开心的啊，可是心情却和天空一样的灰。Eva, now i know how you feel when someone turns u down. Not a good feel huh? Yea...我哥刚拒绝了我。其实昨晚的时候我大概就有预感他不会跟我去CYC的了，可是当和Robin谈过后，我觉得不应该那么快就做订段！心里在想。。。说不定会有奇迹出现，说不定他会说：“好啊！等下我跟你去！” 可是刚才当我问他时。。。他只是短短的一句NO就拒绝了我。很不甘心，于是就打电话给他！已经很压抑着自己的问他了，他却还是短短的一句“等下有东西做”来拒绝我。哎。。。是我不够诚意吗？

雨后都会天晴。属于我的晴天还会很遥远吗？

我的晴天娃娃呢？

Twins, Kembar, 孪生！！！

To all the twins in this whole universe: I HAVE TWINS TOO!!!! Hahahahah....let me share with you guys my twins story.

First day of orientation, FIRST day ok! People already asked whether Chern Lin and I are twin sisters or not. I tell you...her name is Lai Chern Lin, i am Mah Chia Ying, she lives in Melaka, i live in Perak, she was born on 31 Oct 1989 and mine was 13 Jan 1989!! What more important is that, We NEVER met with each other BEFORE!!! And now, for over 19 years, almost EVERYONE says that WE ARE KEMBAR~~!!!! Mamamia.....@_@

At first, i thought it was just some lame jokes from college students. Cause i look in the mirror over and over again, look at the pictures we took over and over again, and i cant find any twins thing between us!! Okla...just the hair. That's it!!!

In first semester, i have lost count of the people who said that we are TWINS. I tell you....some of them even ter-shock, yes, is TERKEJUT when there was once, we wore the Taylor's t-shirt to coll for presentation. "Wow~~Don't shock me la u guys!!" What??? This is my well-known conversation to all my twins friends back in high school!! And now this is what i heard in Taylor's here.....*Pengsanku*

Then now is my 2nd semester. Guess what? Ms. Usha glanced through us that day, then she was a bit bit shocked and said :" You two look alike" Than my reaction was straightaway pengsan infront of her! "No...Just one glance. Actually not very lar, just....haha" This is what she continued. Wow....Don't scare me wei~~ Untill Ms. Usha also says like that! Wei, Lai Chern Lin, are you my loooooong lost sista??

Then today, i mean just now, during Malaysian Studies class, a sem 1 gal name Catherine, look at me and Chern Lin shockly!!! Yes...her face shows one word, SHOCK!!! "Are you guys twins?" At that time, both of us were too immune with this twin topic liao. So one of us says YES, and one of us says NO! And she was....BLUR~~Hahahha...sorry la gal.

Eh, Lai Chern Lin, i think we should find a TWIN brothers as our boyfriend or maybe husband also! Then...it will be very TWIN!!! Hahahahaha

释放

CYC “遇见神”生活营让我得到了心理的安慰，获得了很大的释放！其实我万万也没想到自己竟然会在小组里面，在每一个成员的面前分享我的心事。本来还一直在策划要在何时何地找CK谈，因为他是一个大忙人嘛，当然是要有所计划和安排才能找到他咯~！哈哈哈哈！想不到我除了可以有时很暴力之外，还可以很勇敢！各位Heart 6的成员，谢谢你们！爱死你们哦~

其实在去生活营之前，我就一直很盼望在这件事上有所解决，好让我不用再烦恼下去。Mana tau tau....我真的得到心理上的安慰，因为我知道，我并不是一个人在独自面对，我有整个Heart 6在支持我，我有神在帮助我！这一次的camp使我第一次真正感受到Holy Spirit....Wow~~我跟你说，那个感觉真的是超棒的! 试想想。。。在云顶一个这么冷的地方，站在原地纯粹的祷告，然后你感觉到一种热能充满整个身体。那个感觉是很真实~！

Deborah Evangeline Gan Mei Hui, thankz for everything! Hundreds and millions of Thankyou is not enough to express my gratitude! Oh ya...the bible verse that you gave me, i was searching long enough for it~!!! Xie Xie.....Give you a HUGE Kiss here la~M..U..A..C..K..S..S..S~~!!!!! Love ya always~!!

Awesome Blast~!!!

Dark eye circles are Black, Eye bags are Huge
Its all worth it because i encounter You

Energy is Drain off, Body is Exhasuted
I am happy because i feel You

Hands are tired, Legs are Tired out
It feels great as i get to dance in Your presence

Mind is Rejuvenated, Soul is Revived
Thankz to CYC's Encounter God Camp

Ok, this is my very first English poem which sounds ciaciat yet this is what i really meant. Just came back from Peace Heaven, which is 1km from Genting Highland, attending the Encounter God Camp organised by FGA CYC (Chinese Youth Church). OMG...it was really an awesome camp!!! I never expect that i will gain so much there.

First of all, i want to thank Eva and Mun Suetfor inviting me to this camp. If not for them, i am still being tied up of all the problems. Not forgetting, the most important group, HEART 6!!! They really let me felt like a family and take much care of me.
Leader-Robin Ooi, Ass Leader-Yi Woon and Charlie, Group Member-Eva, Dennis, Chern Lin, Alan, Pui San, Pui Kee, Jasmine, June and Me. Gosh...we really form a great team right? We start from stranger, shy and unfamiliar, to good team members and more than that, cooperative and unite. Thankz to goodness of God!!

4 Praise & Worship sessions and i cried in all of them...Yeah, i really touched by Him. My worries and doubts are now lesser, i should say, and i feel much more lighter and comfortable. Franklly speaking, at first i thought i was just another ordinary camp, where everyone is speaking in Chinese, including the God's word which i am not familiar with as i grew up in a English church! When i went to CYC service last Saturday, i was so lost and unconnected as i don't the connection and the "click" in Chinese services. I've even thought of changing to English session, following Benny or Julia...maybe? Hahah...well, now that i've understand. In His kingdom, language is not an obstruction, what more important is our heart and attitude.

Well...here i want to congrats June for getting his very own first bible and mange to speak in tongue!!! Wohooo~~~Bravo! *Clap Clap* Congrats to Chern Lin too as she get to know more about Christianity and know more friends. Eva, guess that you do recieved ur own blessing too rite? Jasmine, congrats for able to feel the Holy Spirit! I felt it as well~!! ^_^ Dennis, i salute you for the courage of your sharing. Alan, you speake to us...at last~Pui San, glade that you managed to open up your heart to share your thouhts. Pui Kee, i see you've been touched by Him too! Congrats to you as well~~Charlie, thankz for the lighting...it was indeed very owesome!! Yi Woon, don't feel regret or lack of something for being one of the committee, you've done a bood job gal! Robin the leader and musician, gosh...it must be very tiring for you right? Can tell from your sickness. Well, you've lead us well and worship well too. I can see you felt something too at the end of the service^^ CK, the busy man as well....lead in worship and guide our group through the camp. Bravo you two! Oh ya...thankz to you guys for always saving the very front row to Heart 6!!! It really meant a lot to me!!

Well i luv ya guys~!!! Keep in touch ya! Muacks and may God bless you!!!