Tell me WHY

Ok, this post may sound a bit offensive to some people, especially for the "bananas", for them who don't know Chinese. Ya, i know am kinda "going towards the West" (Chong Yang), but then am still PROUD of myself as a Chinese who can speak, listen, read and write Chinese ok. For what reason, i am a pure Chinese which study Chinese Private School~

I duno why lately am so frust about this English thing.....Is it because of after getting a F=FAIL for my Global Societies assig? Or is it because i cant understand what the lecturers were talking about lately? Or maybe simply because my English really BAD..??

Like today in IPD class, Mr. Justin was discussing something about some books, English titled one, that were banned in Malaysia or something like that. Then i noticed, i don't even know any of them! What makes me more frust is that, the whole class know and i don't know!!! What is going wrong here? Really pissed lo that time....We'r living in the same country, and they'r like knowing every single English thing and i don't even heard bout it before! Well, maybe i should see things from a different angle~

Do they ever know what is 水浒传(Outlaws of the Marsh)，三国演义（Romance of the Three Kingdoms)，孙悟空（Monkey King Sun Wukong)，红楼梦（A Dream of Red Mansions) and others? I don't think many of them will even know what are they! But then do they even care if they doesn't know? I dun think so!!! Cause for some of them, Chinese is NOTHING~They don't care a shit bout it! Well, that's fine with me. But then, must you look down on us, who can communicate in one more language than you? Tease and laugh at us when we don't know about your English thing?

Come on....look at yourself~You are a Chinese Ok! Who cares you speak, writes or ect...better than us, Chinese? You dont even know your mother tongue! Well of course, i salute those who wants to learn and curious about their own thing. Okay....i know its a gloablise society and we should learn more things and what not, but then I AM SO SE-TE-RESSSSS~!!!! Arhhhhhh......i can't afford to see what the whole wide world knows what is going on, and i don't know! But then...what they know is about thier English thing~~ Sounds so sarcastic right! But well, this is how i console myself when i am down!

Seriously, i HATE them when they say Chinese school student ALWAYS stick to their own group, which means the Chinese speaking group, and not wanting to mix around. So....you think that you guys DOESN'T stick to your own English ed group? Please la.....check with yourself first before you say others Ok! Don't always start with "No Offence" and then criticise us as if you are the BEST human group living in the world~Well, maybe i should start saying "No Offence" when looking down on you?

I wana say out loud that i don't care a shit thing about their society, but i can't! I just can't!!! The world works in this way, other than fitting myself in, what more can i do?